Friday, December 19, 2008

She Ain't Heavy, She's My Femur

It started with a lump, which I found a few short weeks ago. Then it was breast cancer. Then it was bone cancer on both sides of my body (left hip, right femur), and possibly ovarian cancer. Now we're adding possibly uterine/cervical cancer. Pathology report to follow. Maybe brain scans and bone scans on the bits that the PET scan missed. Maybe more (more!) biopsies.

I'm thinking maybe my 'team' and I should have a Christmas Dance. With all the scans I've had in the last ten days, I should glow enough by now to be able to stand in for the chandelier...

It's hard to blog when the hits just keep on coming.

So I think I'm going to start another blog. This one for the fiber and family stuff. Another one for my cancer journey. Kind and sensitive people who love me and who will be hurt by outbursts of anger, depression, morbid humor, sarcasm, whinging, and recounting of the less pleasant aspects of being Really Seriously In Trouble should not read that blog (this means you, mom, and the rest of my loving family), because I'm going to be Honest rather than Nice or Inspiring.

You've been warned.

We now return you to our regular programming.

8 comments:

Delighted Hands said...

I think that is a very good idea. I think the anonymity would be an excellent vent!

Crazy Lady with purple fingers said...

I am sooo sorry to hear the bad news, when you did not post for a bit I was worried, think of you every day and am sending prayers and good wishes, good idea to start another blog for your venting as you go through your cancer journey, you need to get it out.

timary said...

I also think of you often (every day.) I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. My prayers go out to the Thug as well, as I suspect he is your biggest concern in all this.

mrspao said...

Hug x

Carrie K said...

I hate the idea of you having to compartmentalize your blog when life is not that way, just to spare the tender feelings of people who love you but can't bear to know what's actually going on with you.

Dori Ann said...

I think it is wonderful you have given yourself permission to go to a place where you can just express what you need to, at the time and not carry that extra burden of friends and family. That's all I have to say about that :)
How do I find the blog? I plan on visiting often :)

Glorious Hats said...

Life does have a way of biting one in the butt. But dang, I hate it when it mauls a dear one. Found your blog of purple and signed on for the ride, be it smooth or bumpy. You are not alone. It is wonderful of you to be concerned about family and to wish to spare them. Hugs, Jane

prayer bedes said...

You have been in my thoughts and prayers ever since I read your note to the MN Street Team. Though I have never met you in person, you are an inspiration. =) Humor is healthy, but so is expressing how you feel. Frankly, things sound like they "suck big time" right now. I would like to share your journey in your new blog, if you feel like sharing. If you read my Etsy profile, you will see that I am not a stranger to life's "serious trouble(s)." Life can be like a roller coaster. Sometimes the dips are a little bigger that we thought. I have had times when I have wanted to get off the ride! Hang in there.
Peace,
Christine